a blue hue~

Are you there God? It’s me Candy~

Why do you allow us to see in color?

Why not Black and White?

I love looking at old pictures…
a lot are a brownish color, not black and white, like they are considered.

Did you give us color for “pleasure“?

color is so…

stimulating
emotional

overwhelming
warming

appealing

 

Picture I took of a flower  in Peru~

and still I am pulled toward  black and white.

Our Boat on the Amazon River, Peru

Thank you GOD for giving us your beautiful colors~

candy~

Chris Rice wrote a song that is so true…
Lazy summer afternoon
Screened-in porch and nothin’ to do
I just kicked off my tennis shoes

Slouchin’ in a plastic chair
Rakin’ my fingers through my hair
I close my eyes and I leave ‘em there
And I yawn, and sigh, and slowly fade away

Deep enough to dream in brilliant colors I have never seen
Deep enough to join a billion people for a wedding feast
Deep enough to reach out and touch the face of the One who made me
And oh, the love I feel, and oh the peace
Do I ever have to wake up

Awakened by a familiar sound
A clumsy fly is buzzin’ around
He bumps the screen and he tumbles down
He gathers about his wits and pride
And tries again for the hundredth time
‘Cause freedom calls from the other side
And I smile and nod, and slowly drift away

Deep enough to dream in brilliant colors I have never seen
Deep enough to join a billion people for a wedding feast
Deep enough to reach out and touch the face of the One who made me
And oh, the love I feel, and oh the peace
Do I ever have to wake up

‘Cause peace is pouring over my soul
See the lambs and the lions playin’
I join in and I drink the music
Holiness is the air I’m breathin’
My faithful heroes break the bread and answer all of my questions
Not to mention what the streets are made of
My heart’s held hostage by this love

And these brilliant colors I have never seen
I join a billion people for a wedding feast
I reach out and touch the face of the One who made me
I’m deep enough to dream in brilliant colors I have never seen
Deep enough to join a billion people for a wedding feast
Deep enough to reach out and touch the face of the One who made me
And oh, the love I feel, and oh the peace
Do I ever have to wake up
Do I ever have to wake up
Do I really have to wake up now

Click to hear song

 

in INK~

Are you there God? It’s me Candy~

I have this saying…

in INK~

I purposefully make the” ink” part all caps.

ink is permanent.
we use it for:
letters
love note
checks
legal notes
drawings
homework
marking
tattoos

and in my bizarre thinking “prayer“

I have struggled for years thinking about “IF” you really listen to my prayers or even care…

but I have learned that you “ABSOLUTELY” listen to my prayers!

I just have to remember that sometimes “unanswered prayers” are also a blessing and heard.

 Thank you ”GOD” for those prayers that I think get lost in Spam~

candy~

A flash of the shutter~

 

Are you there God? Its me Candy~

I have been using Alexis’ camera with my dads manual lens….

HATE IT!

But

LOVE IT!

The pictures are what end up and is what I have… the love/hate relationship
with the lens..

what I see in my

head

 and

what I get as the outcome 
a lot are lost moments in time never to be retreaved.

Dev~

dev silly~

2 seconds apart!

sky

 

Giggles 

Minutes in life are always taken for granted

But

A Picture is Priceless

PaPaw and Skyler~ at the firestation!

Thank you “God” For ALWAYS reminding us to giggle and laugh and enjoy our Blessed lifes you have given us…

 

sky at the firestation!

candy~

Who?

Are you there God? Its me Candy~

I have a lot of questions that I know I’m never going to get answered.

Do you listen to everything we ask for?
Do you count the days that I am at Church?
Does it make me a better person or get bonus points in Heaven when we do “Christian type” stuff?

I know that when I am surrounded by negative people I feel negative and when I’m around people who inspire me I feel like a million dollars.

But some days I wonder who I am… what do people see in me?
am I
Debbie Downer
or
Positive Polly?

What does it matter what people think about us, but I am always wondering what they think about me.

What does God see in me?
Does he do stuff for us when we do things to help others?

I had a major burden put on my heart a couple years ago.
I wanted to have Darrell’s Grandmother, Marie, live with us after her stroke.
She was in a nursing home and wouldn’t speak.
I wanted her to have coffee and cake whenever she wanted.

I wanted her to be around people who loved her 24/7.
I had the” great” plan.

I prayed about it…

but I also heard ALL the reasons not to do it.

Did I make the choice GOD wanted?
Or what I wanted?

No regrets… She was a light in my life and I will never look back with anything but love for her. People would say that God will give me extra stars for the sacrifice… No need for stars, she was my star! There were many sacrifices, angry family members and tons of turmoil, but I will never forget her laughter and her love of me who wasn’t even her blood.
She is the role model I want to be.
A true Christian, what Christ wants us to be like.

I Miss Her A LOT~

I know when she went to heaven God said “Well done good and faithful servant…”

Thank you God for Olena Marie,

candy

Judging a Book~

Are you the GOD, It’s me Candy~

I am a bookaholic….

I have a hard time picking up a book. Its too hard to decide on just one.
AND
I am constantly judging a book by its cover!

to me I see a …
new
pretty
rare
well worn
intriguing
boring
bent
short
old

BOOK

but just sometimes …

Falling UP

~You find a precious gift from an amazing author~

The End of The Book

Shel Silverstein

September 25, 1930 – May 10, 1999

His books are priceless…

Thank you GOD for the amazing talent you lend us, life is all about Falling UP~

candy

Alexismagdeline~

Are you there GOD? It’s me candy~

I’m stealing my daughters blog today….

Day forty four

Dear world,

Its crazy how we call you beautiful, how we call you magnificent.

Yet we only see 1/100000 of what you have to offer.

We call you wonderful, yet we barely even know you.

We only see what is right in  front of us.

Show me what more you have to offer.

and ill show you what i can give back.

Always Almost yours, 
AlexisMagdeline.

Alexismagdeline

 Thank you GOD for ALWAYS looking through the lines~

candy

Whole New World~

Are you there GOD? It’s me Candy~

I see so many faces daily
and I wonder what what type of “world” do they live in?

A brush of time
A glimpse of wonder
A whisper of life

Curiosity

What  makes up our “world”?

shimmer in the world

We pass through life and sometimes never know the impact we can make or have made.
The stamp in our “life passport”

Could a
smile
wave
nod
jester

change the aspect of the way we react to others?

Good
Bad
Indifferent

Do we allow people to enter our world?

I am guilty~

I pass through life with my head down so many times, so many days.

Invisible

It takes such a short amount of time to look in the eyes of others and enter their world.

Are we blind or do we not want to see?
Change?

Do you see the stick by his eye or the bat in his hand?

Thank You “God’ for reminding me, I can change their world because I know they change mine~

candy

The Day Changes~

Are you there GOD? It’s me, candy~

I can feel the heartbeat of a mother I’ve never met.

She is frantic
Scared
Every nerve in her is electrified
Panic
Dread

Is there doubt that she looked away for a moment?

That exact moment when she hears the sound
that “no” mother wants to hear.
The fall of her child.
The thump of his head.
The shrill in the cry that “you” know instinctively as a mother.

The adrenaline running through her, snatching up her precious child to check for “anything”.
Anything

The small prayer for nothing to be wrong.
The mumble under your breath” Please GOD don’t let anything be wrong.”

And when it does and our day changes~

Care Flight

I am only a standby today,
into a world that I  never wish to be.

The sound of the sirens blended in with the sharp blades making everyone look to the sky.

The day changes in a blink of an eye.

I see it all though the eyes of an outsider, with the camera in my hand I am able to separate myself from the chaos.

Firemen are true Heroes~

tears
relief

A parents nightmare
and I stand with the camera in my hand
mumbling prayers under my breath for their child

a child who’s name I do not even know

GOD I know that we forget so many times to lean on you….

but I know “YOU” were there

I could see it through the firemen eyes as the cared for this precious child.

The thumbs up sign from the Care flight crew!

The precious package being put in such a amazing machine.

Thank You GOD for their bravery and expertise as  the outsiders mumble prayers for you to hear~

Good days Work~

Pray and ask God what you can do for Him and what change you can make in your life to serve Him.
This is a day of finding that little something extra we can do;
this is a day of change.

candy

PS: his name is Rhys~

Rhys and Rhylee

The Black Void~

Are you the GOD, It’s me Candy~

Its been over a year since I spent time in the Amazon.

~Missionaries~

Did I really sign up for this?

What has it brought me and what have I brought back to others?

A void in my life?

• Where is my relationship with other people ?
• Where is my relationship with you, GOD? 
• I wonder what I have brought back to others or to myself?
• What is my willingness to get out of my comfort zone?
• Always lost in thoughts of those who touched my life.
• And those who didn’t.
• Wondering why I was sent there.
• Wondering what I can do to change lives now.
• Can I really do something that would make a difference?

Its only me~

 

child in Peru

The holes in the ground were everywhere!

She was so close to danger but so intrigued. 
Aren’t we all?

I was very sick in Peru….

So sick that sometimes I doubted I could make another day. 

 

Peru Hospital

It’s not something you want to write home and make your family worry after they told me I was insane to go.
So we took a picture of the better hospital.

Doctors in Peru were on Strike!
No warnings for the insane Americans!

What were the Peruvians doing for care?
What can I do to change this? 

Darrell was with me and I knew I was in good hands with my personal Paramedic.
Medication we brought from the states.
IV’s and small needles!

Darrell would walk the streets to different street pharmacies and explain my conditions. Praying that it would make me better!

The peruvian medicine I was given, I never knew what it was, was very painful.
The liquid would start flowing and I would just squeeze my eyes and know that GOD was not far away.

I didn’t get to go out to some of the areas to dig the wells
..left behind to heal. 

But GOD gave me something so unexpected.

Not the friends who went with.

Not the loving husband by my side.

But two little angels who were with me ALWAYS!
ALWAYS!

 

~Little Angels~

I slept in a tent inside a building because of the mosquito born illness Dengue Fever.
It was so hot!
I shared it with another ministry friend…
I think she thought I was going to contaminate her

My little angels checked on me often, brought me water and beautiful flowers for the exchange of my time to be with them.

We played a lot of games without communicating  the normal way.

They brought me so much joy!
I brought them  chocolate and candy…

 

 

 

 

Peru Angels~

 

 

GOD did have his little Angels with me holding my hand and loving unconditionally!

My Void was filled as  your children would reach out to me reminding me that you never leave us.

Some days seem so dark but there is always that little speck of light.

I know so many people around me who feel like they are surrounded in darkness.
I know and hope you know I am always there to listen.

its only me~

I hope that I can take the ray of light from two little girls and share the hidden light to others.
 

Thank You “GOD” for reminding the beautiful times I spent with your children and that I did bring something back….

Kisses to Salmalee and Saraee.

 

candy

 

Leaving my mark

 

PS it wasn’t me who marked the wall but I can claim it!

Bear Tracks~

Are you there, God? It’s me Candy~

There is a poem called “Footprints.”

In the poem it says that in our deepest, darkest days we see only “ONE” set of footprints.

Interesting that we as humans feel “GOD” you are suppose to there for us every step of the way.

~ Do you leave us alone?~

Warning signs we ignore.

The 7 deadly sins we should know by heart so we don’t run into danger.
( I can only think of greed and gluttony)

The Bible with the rules we should follow…

Do I  see what could be detrimental to

you
or
me?

Do we try ?

Do I choose to take the path with 2 sets of footprints or “ONE”?

Jesus washed his disciples feet…..WHY?

Sweet Bear

Was he trying to tell us that he wanted to care for us completely.

Bear Foot

Each day I take a step I need to remember that you “GOD” carry our burdens even when we think we feel the weight.

Its a dirty job!

~Bear toes~

“GOD” you lift us up so often that a child has to remind me….

GOD you leave your footprints in the sand!

Thank you “GOD” for walking in our shoes and leaving footprints in the sand ~

candy

PS: thank you for the new tracks in the sand
Sky took her first steps!